I am not very good at this blogging thing. So, the weightloss. It is coming along. I have lost twenty pounds. I feel a lot better about myself physically.

I should have lost more by now but I admit, while I never gained during the process, I did stay the same for several weeks. I got into a relationship and that led to eating out a lot, not making the best food choices, etc.

I am now out of that relationship and while it may be good for my diet, it is very hard on my soul. I am the one that did the breaking up, for my own sanity. It wasn't a healthy relationship. However, I left feeling very sad and depressed. Very alone and empty. I hate feeling this way. I have not felt this way in a long time. I don't think I felt this bad even after my divorce.

This is also a hard time of year to feel this way. Lord help me get through the days.

Thank you to my Dad and Step-Mom for their amazing Christmas gift. It really did help me and the boys will certainly benefit from it.

I love you all.