Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Re-Run
Its just like when I was 17. I had broken up with the love of my life, he wasn't speaking to me or answering my phone calls. We accidentally ran into each other at a restaurant and we both pretended we didn't know each other. We didn't look at each other, we didn't speak to each other. It made me feel so awful. I couldn't eat my food and it basically ruined my night.
Fast forward to today. Again, have broken up with only the second person I have truly loved. Not speaking, not texting, emailing, etc. We have run into each other twice at the bar. Ignored each other, didn't look at each other. Made me feel awful and ruined my night, twice.
I have come to the conclusion that relationships aren't worth it. It is too hard to find a good one and when they end, it hurts way too much. I can't keep doing this. It has been almost two months and I can't move on. I can't get over it. I am a mess.
I think it is time to be done. Its me and my kids and no more pain.
Fast forward to today. Again, have broken up with only the second person I have truly loved. Not speaking, not texting, emailing, etc. We have run into each other twice at the bar. Ignored each other, didn't look at each other. Made me feel awful and ruined my night, twice.
I have come to the conclusion that relationships aren't worth it. It is too hard to find a good one and when they end, it hurts way too much. I can't keep doing this. It has been almost two months and I can't move on. I can't get over it. I am a mess.
I think it is time to be done. Its me and my kids and no more pain.
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