Yesterday would have been my nine year wedding anniversary. Sometimes I do regret that would couldn't make things work. Being in a marriage together, raising our children together would be ideal. But, I also know that getting a divorce was for the best. I am much happier now. The kids are happier seeing me happy and not having to hear and see us fight all the time. Ike is not happier unfortunately. I am not sure what happened but I guess he never learned to take care of himself. He really is a mess and I feel bad for him but I am no longer responsible for him and refuse to let his actions and bad decisions effect my life.
So, yesterday was a good day. I had the day off so I was lazy all day. I layed around with a good friend of mine. It was nice and relaxing. It was also my awesome friend Brandi's 21st birthday. So that evening I went to dinnner with her and her family then her and I and some friends went to a bar. We a had a lot of fun.
Happy Birthday to Brandi.
Happy ex-Anniversary to Ike and I.
Happy to be single!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sunday, April 5, 2009
An update!
So, almost a year later...here it is! I realized that I was always writing such negative things and my life wasn't really going the way I wanted it to and I decided I didn't need to keep sharing that with everyone. But, things are going really good now and people are telling they need an update.
My anemia got worse. The size of my red blood cells got really small, I was a mess. I was sent to a hematologist and she put me on some different meds that didn't help. She was stumped and finally sent me to the hospital every week for IV therapy and I have had to stop my period. I can't afford to loose anything. So after several treatments my levels are finally to the lowest end of normal. Considering what they were, this is a huge success! I have to stay on meds but the IV treatments are done for now, as long as I don't have a period. In the course of this my B12 plummeted to dangerous levels as well and was NOT coming back up. So low in fact that nerve damage has began and an MRI shows a tiny bit of dementia. Who knew that B12 was so important. Unfortunately, these things are not reversable. I now give myself monthly B12 injections at home to make sure none of this gets worse. But I have to say that I am finally starting to feel better. I am slowly feeling the energy come back a tiny bit and my moods are imporoving. I am breathing a little easier and just over all, feeling better.
The Ike situation is getting a lot better. He got evicted from my apartments here and moved into another apartment. He got evicted from there as well. So now he is in Magna living with a couple of girls in a house. This is good! He is far enough away from me that I never see him except when exchanging the kids. I am getting child support from ORS. Things are getting better.
I still work as a relay operator for the deaf and hard of hearing. I have been there almost a year. I don't love the job, I tolerate it. But, they are good to work with the schedule I need for the kids. So it works for now. I still have about two years till Christian is in school. When that happens, I think I will go back to Phlebotomy.
Dating...I am done with it. I have gotten so burned out on it. I was meeting people who were so crazily clingy or just wanted a "Friend With Benefits". I am not okay with either situation. I was dating so much that it got to the point where I literally got sick to my stomach when thinking about going out any more. So I am done and have felt a lot better since then. I don't need men in my life. I have my sweet little boys and my friends and an amazing church. That is all I need right now.
And Church...I LOVE it! I have found a really great church. K2. I love it. My kids love it. I don't know what more to say about it, it is simply great and I can now say I have an awesome relationship with my Lord and Savior. I was babtized in September in Sugar House Park at Burning Heart. I feel great!
The boys are doing good. Noah is really cathing up on his reading. He is only about a half a grade behind now which is a HUGE improvement. Noah LOVES video games. He is a very sweet boy. He is really doing great in developing his relationship with Christ as well. Christian is in pre-school and really enjoys it. He is such a friendly little boy. He loves everyone. He is so cuddly and loving. They are both doing great and really looking forward to Spring and Summer.
We moved into a bigger apartment. We are in the same complex but in a two bedroom. Mommy finally gets her own room! Rent is a little expensive, but it is worth it.
I think I covered everything :o) I will try a little harder at keeping up.
My anemia got worse. The size of my red blood cells got really small, I was a mess. I was sent to a hematologist and she put me on some different meds that didn't help. She was stumped and finally sent me to the hospital every week for IV therapy and I have had to stop my period. I can't afford to loose anything. So after several treatments my levels are finally to the lowest end of normal. Considering what they were, this is a huge success! I have to stay on meds but the IV treatments are done for now, as long as I don't have a period. In the course of this my B12 plummeted to dangerous levels as well and was NOT coming back up. So low in fact that nerve damage has began and an MRI shows a tiny bit of dementia. Who knew that B12 was so important. Unfortunately, these things are not reversable. I now give myself monthly B12 injections at home to make sure none of this gets worse. But I have to say that I am finally starting to feel better. I am slowly feeling the energy come back a tiny bit and my moods are imporoving. I am breathing a little easier and just over all, feeling better.
The Ike situation is getting a lot better. He got evicted from my apartments here and moved into another apartment. He got evicted from there as well. So now he is in Magna living with a couple of girls in a house. This is good! He is far enough away from me that I never see him except when exchanging the kids. I am getting child support from ORS. Things are getting better.
I still work as a relay operator for the deaf and hard of hearing. I have been there almost a year. I don't love the job, I tolerate it. But, they are good to work with the schedule I need for the kids. So it works for now. I still have about two years till Christian is in school. When that happens, I think I will go back to Phlebotomy.
Dating...I am done with it. I have gotten so burned out on it. I was meeting people who were so crazily clingy or just wanted a "Friend With Benefits". I am not okay with either situation. I was dating so much that it got to the point where I literally got sick to my stomach when thinking about going out any more. So I am done and have felt a lot better since then. I don't need men in my life. I have my sweet little boys and my friends and an amazing church. That is all I need right now.
And Church...I LOVE it! I have found a really great church. K2. I love it. My kids love it. I don't know what more to say about it, it is simply great and I can now say I have an awesome relationship with my Lord and Savior. I was babtized in September in Sugar House Park at Burning Heart. I feel great!
The boys are doing good. Noah is really cathing up on his reading. He is only about a half a grade behind now which is a HUGE improvement. Noah LOVES video games. He is a very sweet boy. He is really doing great in developing his relationship with Christ as well. Christian is in pre-school and really enjoys it. He is such a friendly little boy. He loves everyone. He is so cuddly and loving. They are both doing great and really looking forward to Spring and Summer.
We moved into a bigger apartment. We are in the same complex but in a two bedroom. Mommy finally gets her own room! Rent is a little expensive, but it is worth it.
I think I covered everything :o) I will try a little harder at keeping up.
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